Monday, December 8, 2008

College, and the life after.

I've never really given thought to my future. I've never really imagined how I would be like in those years to come. I always figured that I'd just be the same forever.
Well maybe somewhere inside me I knew that my future was always drawing closer, always becoming the present, and that I couldn't be the same forever, but I much preferred the way things were as they were. With that in mind, I didn't take many things seriously; many important things that would affect my future. I didn't focus on school, or extracurriculars, or on a career. I just thought, that when the time comes, I'll handle it then.
Eventually I came to realize the naivety of my mindset, that I've just been screwing myself and my future over with my immature attitude. I'm so behind in college that I may need another few semesters to graduate, and I'm doing so poorly in what I did that after I graduate there might be nothing for me.
Will there be time for change? Will change make a difference?
I suppose we'll just have to wait and see. That's what I might have said in the past, but now I realize that I can't just wait. I need to be proactive, and make the changes I need to make. I need to make the changes affect my future, not wait to see if my changes will.

No comments:

Hi

Hi