A Spring to Remember

Following up on my previous year's excursion to Cornell, I once again visited the city of gorges and university of friends this Spring break. As expected, I am having immensely more fun here than I ever have in UB, even doing menial things, for everything is more fun with friends. The city of Ithaca is a nice cozy city as well. There is plenty of foodstuffs and entertainment to be found, and a mall can be found a mere 20 minutes away from the campus.
I love hanging out with friends.

Once I return to Buffalo, there will be more work to do and lots of lonely time.
I also seem to have misplaced my debit card, but I will hopefully find it.

A Month in Review

As expected, my procrastination tendencies have yet to cease, regardless of the promises of reform made.
Just 3 more months! Then 3 more years! Hang in there Eric.

Random Thoughts

Some device that can record and replay dreams needs to be invented immediately.

Random Thoughts

Saw some interesting articles about classes taught at some colleges, such as Starcraft in UC Berkely, Smash Bros in Oberlin, and DotA in CMU.
Got me thinking about how experimental courses get rolling, and how you can pretty much do anything if you have the money to fund it.
Not that I'm criticizing or complaining. I would love to have the opportunity to take classes like these and meet other people who share the same interests especially, which I feel would be the most I gain out of such classes.

Man there's a lot of stuff I wish I could do and could have done in the past.
It's always about time and money :\
Though obviously my own poor decisions probably mattered most.

Week 1 and Beyond

The first week of classes has concluded. My classes are quite easy, but it is only the first week and that is always a bit slower and easier. So it turns out that I will only be getting financial aid for 5 years. That means I must do my best to graduate in 5 years. I think it can be done.
I must start planning my credits and courses now, 2 years late.

I recently began thinking about how to better organize my blog. Although I have always said that this blog will cover pretty much everything I do, I realized that sticking everything in just one blog makes things more unorganized. However, I do not want to make a new blog account for every different category I would like to cover, so I am in quite a predicament.

Also, for my readers (lol) who follow only specific categories, it would be strange for them to come across some random post about something completely different.
Also, there are some things that I don't really want out in the public at all, but still need to write down.
I figure making different accounts would be the best indeed, but I'll see if I can come up with anything.

Here's to a hopefully better future.

Salvaging the Wreck

OK so here's a more serious post, though I do indeed have too much shit to do.
After 14.5 years of school, I realized that school is not for me. I simply cannot meet the requirements that schools set and expect from me. First of all, I do not have the willpower to learn things I do not want to learn. I pretty much only give a damn about things I want to give a damn about, and all these damn classes are not things I give a damn about. This can be shown with my grades. I've been hitting consistent Bs in high school because, well high school was fun, and pretty damn easy. Now I'm in college, and while it is still pretty damn easy, it is NOT fun. I've been hitting consistent C-'s, with the exception of my one A in Japanese, the only class I ever went to and enjoyed being in and did all the work for.
College was made for people who want to learn. I don't want to learn. If I did, I would rather go to a trade or specialty school. I'd rather get a job after high school than go to college. However, in society it is widely accepted that in order to get a good job, you must have a degree in college, therefore leaving me in quite a bind. I, who have shirked my academic duties for 3 semesters, cannot do much at all to save myself in these remaining 5+ semesters. In fact, I've been pretty much fucked since 8th grade, and it's of course only my own fault. Now all I can do is sit down, shut up, and try to salvage what I can from 19 years of wasted life.

So now the spring semester has begun. I realized that computer science is NOT what I want to do. I do love computers and technology and the like, but I detest programming, and don't want to learn it. I'll take computer engineering over data analysis any day. However, as usual I have fucked myself by making it so that I CANNOT change my major, because all majors require a 2.0 to apply for, and of course I have not obtained said grade, and will not until this semester. Therefore, I'm essentially starting 2 years late, and will probably need at least another year to graduate. Good looking out Eric. My intended major change is of course Media Studies, which I have had a solid interest in for many years now. However, Media Studies is a gay department and requires portfolios by taking classes you can't register for unless you are a Media Studies major, thereby making it impossible for me to make a portfolio. Now I have to force register for classes, and one of the Media Studies classes I took last year and got a D on, is NO LONGER a course being offered, I assume because it was such a shitty class, so I cannot even retake the damn class to replace the damn grade. I don't have any choice in the matter, so whatever.
I would also like to minor in Asian Studies, because apparently being an otaku is useful for getting good grades in Japanese. Also there is the issue of money. I'm not entirely sure if I will continue receiving financial aid after being a dumbass and staying more than 4 years, so that'll burden my family even more.

Eventually I'll get out of school after being a miserable failure and disappointment to my family, not find a job because that's what Media Studies and East Asian Studies will get you, and rot my life away.

Note to future generations:
Don't be a fucking dumbass and fuck yourself over. Every year counts so make good of it.

Back to Buffalo

I'm back at Buffalo. I left some things at home D:
Screw proper posting, I got mad shit to do this semester, and not enough money and equipment to do it.
It always comes down to money :[
To Do:
Drop computer science major
Get a job